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The Meaning of Life

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Don't Waste your life. 
I was watching Fear the Walking Dead and Morgan said this to John, the new gunslinger character.

We never know how much time we have.


Don’t know what you got ‘till it’s gone. Things happen so fast and if you blink you’ll miss it. Days turn into weeks turn into months and so on.

You look back and it’s done, gone. 
Thinking about it gets me down. Because that event that I thought would never come came and is now a dot in the rear mirror of life.

Moments that can only be remembered. Never again lived. Loved. 

Did I live them to the fullest?

Then I ponder the times that I wanted time to rush by, when I sat at work and wanted the day to be finished with. And look back and see all that time (life) I wished away.

I think about the future and how things are different now. Events that got me to that point, aged me and loved ones around me. Those moments so precious  now a memory.  And then I think about the meaning of life.

One time, as a teen (long story) I had stayed up late …

My Ideas Scare Me At Times

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Do you scare yourself with what you think about? 
Sometimes I have thoughts about crazy things. Situations that are like movie scenes. At times they can seem like day dreams, or fantasies. They are things I don't want to see, and things I love to see. Sometimes they can drive me crazy--make me look at life in a different way. 

Sometimes they are scenes I enjoy while trying to fall to sleep. 

I remember when I did them as a kid. I'd daydream I was with my school crush, and we'd start a life together. My imagination would add all the details and i'd watch a movie unfold. 

Or sometimes I'd be a kid with karate skills taking on the bullies. Or as Iron Man with a suit I could stop villains with. 

These are all cool, and even if you don't have too much of a life, one who has an imagination can really create a world with which to escape. 

A great book can do this for you, as well. 

But then there are those times when something takes over. Thoughts you may not want there. The…

Changes

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If you were to tell me a year and a half ago that I’d be writing and posting three blog posts a week, I’d have thought you were nuts.
But that’s what I’m doing.
The change is drastic looking back through the lens of time, but if thrown on me all at once I’d probably have caved from anxiety.
It’s funny how when gradually exposed to something it makes it easier to accept.
Sort of like the government when they want to introduce something on the masses. They don’t just do it all at once. They gradually change things, then push, then change some more. And before you know it, you look back a year or two and see such a drastic change you don’t know how you got to that point. Research it, if you want to go down that rabbit hole.
Anyway. It was the basis of the comedy What about Bob with Bill Murray. Baby steps. 
But change happens. And anything can happen.
You have to start that change. I realize that now. That’s why when it comes to new things I’m less reluctant to accept and take them on. Beca…

What I'm Working On

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Sitting here, thinking of something to write. Yup, one of those days. I have back up blog posts I can use, but they are good subjects that I don't just want to slap on. 
Hmmmm, think. 

Well. I'm helping someone out with a story they sent me. There's something. 

And I'm writing a story for an anthology. 

Then there's something else that's top secret. Can't give any details as of yet. 

I haven't been able to really do much writing. I've been sort of going through a phase- restructuring the storytelling program inside my head. 

This goes on and off. Reading, learning, thinking of new techniques. And so on. 

This blog, the YouTube channel and the show with Gary, add to that the thumbnails and artwork I do for my posts to gain attention, and even working on some video editing projects, have kept me quite busy. 

But I am working on a story. 

I will soon start editing a novel and sending out to an agent come Fall, hopefully. 

Working on different projects help other…

This, That, It, Something, huh?

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This is an important subject I've noticed I fall prey to many times. I have to go back and catch it (no, not "it" explain what IT is!) 
See? I can go back and say, "I have to go back and catch these minor things." But then things is sort of in the same realm. What things? Though, if there is a modefier I guess it's ok. Depends on the situation. 

Surly the reader knows what you're talking about with these words, no? If you put it in the prior paragraphs. Right? 
Sometimes. 
See, your average reader doesn't recall everything. Most of the time they are on the subway, or being bothered from all sides, many times. Kids, the phone, the boss lol. 

To concentrate in these busy times is very. If you fill in an action, or thing, or anything, with this, that, it, something--words like those--then you can confuse the reader and make your article, or story, cryptic. 

I like that word. It reminds me of Tales From the Crypt. 
Your building a scene, going great, then you …

Your Job Or Your Dream?

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Your job or your dream? 
So I have a very important choice. I have a change coming up at work. 

The manager there, just as all the ones that came before, wants to make their mark and torment the workers, old and new, to make some sort of mark that will never get noticed and they'll probably just end up leaving shortly anyway--this particular manager already expressed as much a few months ago. Plus, as long as I've been there, I've seen it all before. 

The dilemma lies with me looking for another job. 

The problem expands with my dream not having enough time. 

My writing. 

I have a road map of sorts laid down and this was definitely not on that path. 

I got a few offers to go inside where i'm working (as i'm working through an outside company through my current company), but that would require a new learning period, and possibly longer hours and take away from the little writing time I already have. 

Plus I don't really want to be there at all. 

Granted, I don't know…

Do The Opposite - Go Your Own Way

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Should you take advice from others?
Let's say there’s an important step you have to take. A new job, or a new direction with your dream. But you are unsure of which path to choose. To make it worse, you ask people and get mixed answers.

Deep inside you know what that answer is, because if the answers you are getting don’t match what you feel then you will not like the answers you received.
You may want to rebel against what others say, it just feels so right to go with what you believe. But you just don't know. 
You may be steered wrong by individuals who have malicious intent, yet parading as an ally.
Other times the person you ask is not equipped with the experience to give you advice.
You have to understand what you feel inside, what you want from life. You will make the decision sooner or later. Will you choose the wrong direction?
Only you know that. Don’t let other’s run your life. 

Or like James Caan says, "Observe the masses and do the opposite." 

I like that, beca…