We Are Alone

We are here alone. No matter how many people are around us, we are inside our heads and until someone figures out a way to penetrate our thoughts, we will always be alone. Even as we vacate this world. 

I enjoy playing my PS4, Call of Duty is one I'm currently playing. It's a bit harder than previous iterations, but I'm getting down the learning curve and getting a better kill to death ratios. 

I get on the battleground and go against many others from all around the world, and all other systems (this version of the game can do that). 

What I do is jump into a game and shoot, blindly sometimes, and I get some other players on the other team, and I rejoice, and then BAM, I'm a gonner, and then I come back and do it all over again, and again, until the session ends some five to ten minutes later. 

I shoot, kill, and then die. I try to get as many as possible. Each time I take down someone on the other team, I propel my team towards an overall win. I do my best. I get better. 

Live Like You're Dying

Not too long ago I had a scare. I was having anxiety attacks, but didn't know why. I know I am a nervous person, and have some OCD and such, but never did I think it could manifest itself in such a physical way. 
Well, boy did it. 
Medication (Which I quit in a week, couldn't take it) and some therapy later (cognitive), I'm okay. Mental issues happen to a lot of people, perhaps just about everyone to certain degrees. And in today's crazy world, it ain't getting any better. 
So I try to stop myself along the way and, as the saying goes, smell the roses. And I think to a great degree I've been fairly successful. 
It is crazy how much you realize how much you want to tell others certain things when you think the end is near. 

Well, this has been another busy week, but I heard some bad news about another writer a few days ago of his child passing. 

This is terrible, and he is in my prayers. 
All those thoughts I had before came rushing back, along with new ones. This is …

Kris Hates IT

Find out why our bud Kris from Real Vision Radio hated the second chapter to the Stephen King movie reboot of IT. 

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Take Time For You

It's been a busy few months. I've been working my rear off, trying to get some writing in. Surprisingly, I've been able to do more than usual. Still not what I want. 

But you have to do what you can. 

This Thanksgiving, I was given the opportunity to take off Black Friday. Now, being I do a lot of the cooking, having off the next day was a relief. I could rest. And actually enjoy the cooking I did the day before. 

But then I realized. I hadn't taken a Black Friday, or any day close to the holidays, off since I started at my place about 14 years ago. 

It felt good. Real good. 

Sometimes you have to take time and relax. You have to look around and see where you've gotten to in life. Plan things going forward, or just remember the old times. Otherwise, you're just slamming forward and never seeing anything around you. 

It's easy to do this when you are working to support yourself (and your family) and working on the side to seek your dreams. 

Sacrifice. That's wh…

Holiday Nightmares

Gary, Kris and I talk about our holiday nightmares in this hilarious episode. 


Live the Holidays For Now

You have to live for now. Things will never be just right. Things will never be perfect. If you keep thinking that you will pass by great opportunities and memories, you will never see those that are right in front of your face. 

Holidays will go by with you saying next year will be better, but that may not be how it turns out.

If you keep putting off life, you will never live it. 

I grew up around family and friends who said, more or less, things will be different next year. But what if, God forbid, next year doesn't come? What if you're still in the same situation financially, or health-wise--or any other problem, for that matter? What if you miss out one last holiday without someone who doesn't make it to next year? 

It's easy to say that, to pass things off until a later date, but when you look back right after the holidays are over, you're usually let down. 

You know what you wanted it to be like, but it wasn't, because you had the vision in your head that it w…

YouTube Ghost Videos

Check out Gary and my latest video. We talk about YouTube ghost videos and their TV counterparts.